This week would be the 7th week I am interning. Suddenly I realise, how much I miss kitchen. Okay not suddenly, but really though. I miss the smell of garlic, the sweating of the onions, the constant nagging of my chefs, the lighters clicking, the chopping of ingredients. I just really miss everything, maybe not the scrubbing and the cleaning up, but I miss the rush, I miss my chefs, I miss eating, I miss learning. I love the place so so much. Looking forward to end of intern and back to school. Can't wait to start on L'Rez duties, but I also don't wish it to start. On the two extreme sides of the scale.

Take me back to when we were still young and foolish. Thinking that working life will be better than studying. But to be honest, don't we all want to avoid the adult life as long as possible. To let us still be new and a trainee. Don't we all want to be kids forever. Our worst mistake is that we always want to grow up, but are we actually ready for it? For me, I'm looking forward to adult life, but I still want to be forever young. Which is impossible. But it's alright. I'm just gonna face whatever is coming to me.

Intern is fine so far. Been learning quite a bit, coffee, things to do, things not to do, audit, HACCP training, trying not to let personal matters affect my performance at work, and I'm learning a little Cantonese bit by bit. Hopefully I don't confused it with Hokkien. Imagine if I starting talking Hokkien to someone that only understand Cantonese? It's like a dog talking to a cat.

I wouldn't say life is treating me well so far. I just gotta learn and move on. Why should I force it on others, if it wasn't meant to be, it wouldn't make any difference. Like what people say,

如果是我的,　始终也还会是我的.
如果我们是注定的，始终还会再在一起的。
如果你还爱着我，你就会回来.
如果你不再爱我了，我会学着放开.
勉强是没有幸福的.